Inside - a Day - Inside
Greetings and welcome to yet another Clutch observation.....
As the title suggests, this view is coming from inside a maximum-security
prison!
To survive inside these walls, I have been forced to study
people, their mannerisms, habits and traits.
So, I know how to deal within each individual or group safely. Prison does not allow open rehabilitation.
Inmates will attack you if they think you are doing the right thing.
Out there you have consequences and situations daily, but
not on the same plain as inside.
In here it is a much different situation. I am surrounded by society's worst!! Most of whom were never taught any kind of
manners, moral, consideration, respect, self-confidence, problem solving
abilities and they severely lack communication skills. They are angry at the world and blame
everyone and everything else for their problems and situations because they do
not know how to take responsibility. Due
to this mental state these inmates try to control others around them.
Since they do not have any of the above skills when
confronted they do not understand what the next step is so they get angry and
then they try to handle the situation with brute force. (Fighting and threatening physical harm) It's
all they know. That said, one who wants
no trouble must walk around on egg shells constantly so as not to offend any of
the angry people locked up inside! They
are looking for any reason to confront you and try to prove they are better and
stronger than you. I guess so that they feel they are somebody!! These
prisoners attempt to manipulate those around them as a result of their mental
state.
The people around me have a variety of personalities. The
most of them are not good. As depressing as it may sound. It's a pretty tense scenario here. They say stress causes the body to age and I
can attest to that. It’s rough to walk
around here wondering if some mental inmate will wig-out (freak out) on you if
they perceive you glanced at them wrong.
Rewinding to the various types of characters that surround a
prisoner.
Some inmates roam from one person to another talking,
questioning, looking for any type of soap opera information they can twist
around and use to instigate conflict so to watch it unfold. They get a kick out of it. There are stalkers of female guards. There are habitual liars, thieves, rapists,
murderers, child molesters, and women beaters and much much more all with
different mental issues and views on each situation. Some of their lives are so out of control
they try to control the television and every show that comes on. All because they do not know how or won’t
take responsibility and start to rebuild their lives.
Conversely, some individuals do transform and undergo
rehabilitation; but, they are unable to publicly do so since the
"life-hating" prisoners in their vicinity will not have it. That being said: For those of us who truly want to change,
like myself, who has been clean and sober, no trouble at all, for ten years, we
have to be like chameleons while walking amongst the haters of life.
Those men talk only about more crimes they will commit in
the future. They talk about getting
even. I could write a book about what I
have seen and heard. I guess I am in a way.
But let me add that there are some good changed people in
here, and some innocent ones also.
For now Clutch out…..
